… does that mean, your guts telling you right? Or are you just giving in to negativ thoughts.

Always the question of the truth within you. What is Ego, what is healthy instinct. What is imagination. And what the fuck is going on anyway.

We cannot change moments. I know that. We cannot change what happens to us. But we can change the situation: stepping out of it or staying in. But for that it would be good to know the truth of a moment. So often we are left in the dark. All we know is: THIS doesn´t feel right. Something goes wrong. But we cannot grap what it is.

In the end, I learned that I should have trusted my guts more often.

That would mean: I should get rid now of something I have trouble with for long now.